No guilt for hockey
So about a month ago, I joined the women's club hockey team with other commitments to the concert band and to myself to learn rueda (salsa). After I joined hockey, rueda switched the dance practices to conflict exactly with hockey on Sundays. Rueda practices twice a week and hockey 4, but I can only ever make 2 or 3 practices. I never really felt badly about going to both rueda practices and the 2 hockey practices that don't conflict. Until today. Because of Thanksgiving, I haven't been to practice this week, so the decision today between hockey and salsa is a tough one. I really want to go to salsa, but we have a scrimmage tomorrow (which I'll skip rueda for), so I should really go to hockey.
But who and what determines "should"? The more I go to hockey practice, the more I'll get to play in games, but I really just want to salsa today. It's not that I don't like hockey - I love getting out there and learning new skills while sweating out my aggression, but I just like salsa more. Then I feel guilty, though, for skipping hockey to go to salsa, even though I'm skipping salsa tomorrow for hockey. I need to realize that this guilt is only internal and
it doesn't have to be there. I'm doing these activities because I like them - not out of an obligation to someone else. So I'm going to go and remember that this is all just for fun.
Oh, and go see Rent - it's awesome.
207 hilarium
I don't know how to be sufficiently vague to not incriminate myself yet to show the true hilarity. There's really no good way to explain Melissa's e-mail, so if you get it, good for you, and you've probably lived in or around 207 for a long time. Just know that it obviously has to do with boys, Melissa, and myself. So this is part of her e-mail:
hahahaha i am not surprised at all! firstly, he's hot! secondly, we're
207 and this is how we work! you'll have to keep me updated if anything
transpires. do you think boy 1 knows about you and boy 2? do you think
boy 2 knows about you and boy 1? do you think either of them would
care? do you think you could have a threesome?!!?!?! :-P
Truly awesome and hilarious. At least to me and the rest of 207. :-)
Into the Woods Song
I was listening to my new (used) iPod (which is awesome, btw), and this song came on. As I listened to the lyrics, I realized (1) how good of a song it is, (2) the very pertinent and good messages it relays, and (3) how fitting it is for this fall (except for the child and husband part). So I know a lot of times when people post lyrics, I don't really read them, but I promise if you read the song (or IM me at biffbabe for the mp3), you'll be glad you did. And if you want the Cliff's Notes version, look at the bolded sections.
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
Anything can happen in the woods.
May I kiss you-?
Any moment we could be crushed.
BAKER'S WIFE
uh-
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
Don't feel rushed.
BAKER'S WIFE
This is ridiculous,
What am I doing here?
I'm in the wrong story.
Wait one moment, please! We can't do this!
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
Of course, you're right. How foolish.
Foolishness can happen in the woods.
Once again, please-
Let your hesitations be hushed.
Any moment, big or small,
Is a moment, after all.
Seize the moment, skies may fall
Any moment.Days are made of moments,
All are worth exploring.
Many kinds of moments-
None is worth ignoring.
All we have are moments,
Memories for storing.One would be so boring...
BAKER'S WIFE
But this is not right!
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
Right and wrong don't matter in the woods,
Only feelings.
Let us meet the moment unblushed.
Life is often so unpleasant-
You must know that, as a peasant-
Best to take the moment present
As a present for the moment.I must leave you.
BAKER'S WIFE
Why?
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
The Giant.
BAKER'S WIFE
Will we find each other in the woods again?
CINDERELLA'S PRINCE
This was just a moment in the woods.
Our moment,
Shimmering and lovely and sad.
Leave the moment, just be glad
For the moment that we had.Every moment is of moment
When you're in the woods...
Goodbye.
BAKER'S WIFE
What was that?
Was that me?
Was that him?
Did a Prince really kiss me?
And kiss me?
And kiss me?
And did I kiss him back?
Was it wrong?
Am I mad?
Is that all?
Does he miss me?
Was he suddenly
Getting bored with me?
Wake up! Stop dreaming.
Stop prancing about the woods.It's not besseming.
What is it about the woods?
Back to life, back to sense,
Back to child, back to husband,
You can't live in the woods.
There are vows, there are ties,
There are needs, there are standards,
There are shouldn'ts and shoulds.
Why not both instead?
There's the answer, if you're clever:
have a child for warmth,
And a Baker for bread,
And a Prince for whatever-Never!
It's these woods.
Face the facts, find the boy,
Join the group, stop the Giant-
Just get out of these woods.
Was that him? yes it was.
Was that me? No it wasn't,
Just a trick of the woods.
Just a moment,
One peculiar passing moment...
Must it all be either less or more,
Either plain or grand?
Is it always "or"?
Is it never "and"?
That's what woods are for:
For those moments in the woods...
Oh, if life were made of moments,
Even now and then a bad one-!
But if life were only moments,
Then you'd never know you had one.
First a Witch, then a child,
Then a Prince, then a moment-
Who can live in the woods?
And to get what you wish,
Only just for a moment-
These are dangerous woods...
Let the moment go...
Don't forget it for a moment, though.
Just remembering you've had and "and",
When you're back to "or",
Makes the "or" mean more
Than it did before.Now I understand-
And it's time to leave the woods.
Frustrated and Happy
I have this odd feeling of being frustrated and happy at the same time. Nothing seems to go right in the long-term relationship area, but life is great, and I'm having a great time every day. Tonight was like a scene from Dirty Dancing, but with more clothes and no sex. After band practice, I went to the dance room in S&P with Adam, who's from Panama. We practiced our salsa moves together and ended up laughing as much as practicing and, in general, having a ball. Tomorrow is Wine Wednesday, which Lucy and I are hosting, and we're going to have a bunch of people over to drink wine and jus thang out. For some reason, I've been looking forward to it all week, even though I know certain people can't come. It's things like this that make me look forward to each day, but it's the long term that's frustrating and unsettling. I know I need to stop thinking about it and just let things happen, but that's sometimes too hard.
Boys are just as confusing
Let me talk to you boys out there for a little while about the female mind. It's very important that males and females alike understand how different our minds see a situation. Most recently, I've been in situations where (don't get me wrong, I have a ton of fun) I end up confused. Here are some confusing things:
When you act sweet, but only want some play. I guess thinking back you do this because you know it's what we like, so it'll most likely help your cause, but it's
confusing.
When you tell us you like us one day, but change your mind the next day. Where did all these roller coaster boys come from? Or maybe it's just me and bad ex-girlfriend karma.
And this one comes from a friend - Being overly nice after we've broken up. While being friends after dating is great, we need some time before we can be friends, otherwise it will be mistaken as you liking us again.
I must have bad ex-girlfriend karma because it seems I'm running out of luck with the guys I'm falling for. There's been two cases now where he wasn't over his ex-girlfriend. What are you women doing out there to these men?? ;-)
Now I'm off to salsa dance with some hott men. I've decided salsa is a great way to meet guys who happen to have things I like - they can dance and they're (most likely) Hispanic. Mmmmmmm.
Let me tell you about you
From
jenny's blog:
Comment with your name and I'll
1. respond with something random about you.
2. tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. pick a liquor i'd take a shot of with you.
4. say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. ask you something that I've always wondered or liked about you.
8. If I do this for you, you should post this on your journal (I don't care if you do this, but if you like to procrastinate, be my guest.)
Reverting to my middle school self
When it comes to relationships with boys, I know what I want: someone to love, with whom I can share my fears and my joys. I want him to be my best friend and boyfriend. I want someone to grow with, who will challenge me and make me a better person. And I could go on, but you get the drift. (For a more complete description and to give props to Jen, see the
Perfect Man section)
Now this may be a lot to ask, and it might scare some people off. But don't go away yet. Because when I'm on this road, and a bump gets in the way, I end up reverting to my old self. The old Biff has, over these past few years (with a few exceptions), been unattached, not really caring who she's with, but having fun all the while. That might sound harsh boys, but if you're reading this, remember you might be the exception. This summer was about having fun and experiencing new people. But now I say that I'm done with that, yet I can't get away from it.
I feel like I've reverted back to myself before Chris and I dated - flitting from guy to guy, getting bored after a few weeks or months, and moving on. But that's not me - or at least that's not who I want to be. While I am getting good at rationalizing things after they happen to be happy with a decision, a real relationship is something I
know that I want but can't seem to get a grasp on. It also might not totally be my fault, since the guys aren't looking down the same road I am. If that is the case, though, I'm choosing the wrong men, and I feel I should know better. On the other hand, that's hard in the game of dating. It's refreshing when I find a guy so open and willing to talk about his feelings; now, if we could just get that ex out of his mind... but that's a whole 'nother story, and you can ask me about that one.
A nerdy and funny TJ website
From http://www.tjbash.org/
I laughed so hard when I read this because I know I've tried.
// Jack and Nathan sitting at computers next to each other
Nathan: What's the address to that site?
Jack: Here... [highlights text and presses ctrl+C]
Jack: Wait...
Nathan: Were you attempting to copy/paste that from your computer on to mine?
Jack: ...
Jack: No.
Nathan: You thought about it, didn't you?
