Did I ever mention I'm a horrible decision maker?
So it seems I can't make up my mind. When I'm not in a relationship yet there is little hope of being in one, I want to be in one. And when I'm dating someone and it's heading towards a relationship, I get freaked out and don't know if I want to be in one. And guys are supposed to be the ones with commitment issues!
I think I've always been like this. There have been a few times when I've stuck through the questions and doubts to hold together a real relationship. Other times, I freak out. And even other times, the guy gets scared and doesn't want more. So why can't I make up my mind and just stick with it?
In other non-vague news, Chris, Scott, and Boechler were here visiting this weekend. I only got to see Scott a little because he had to leave for something called "school," but it's always so great to get our high school friends back together. People are always amazed that we keep in touch so well, but that's what marching band will do to ya. ;-) And Boechler's even staying here to go to CalTech - yay TJMC in California!
A month's recap
Sheesh, it's been over a month - where do I begin? When I last blogged, the movers were packing up my stuff in Boston to ship out to California. Since then, I have visited my grandparents in New York, spent two weeks at home, been in my brother Nik's wedding, helped my dad with his recovery in the few ways I could, flew across country, moved into my new apartment, bought a lot of furniture, hung out with my mom when she visited, turned 24, started work, and gone out on 2 dates. Phew! I don't really want to go back and go into a lot of details about all those things, so I'll just talk about the present.
Work started 2 weeks ago, and I'm doing the 9/80 schedule, which means I work 80 hours over 9 days (instead of 10, like normal jobs), and I get every other Friday off. I don't like getting home after 6, so I will perhaps try to go in earlier, and it's also tough to fit in a good workout before it feels like bedtime. However, having a 3 day weekend every other week ROCKS. This past Friday, Liz and I went to Huntington Beach down near Orange County, and since it was Friday, it wasn't as crowded, the weather was great, and it was so relaxing to not worry about work and to not feel like I should be doing something else other than enjoying the beach. I can get used to this!
Work itself is going alright. It's been a little slow to start, but I expect that during the first few weeks at a new job. My group supervisor has also changed, and the new one started last Monday, so that's another reason for the slow start and perhaps why I have yet to meet many people in the group. It's been nice to have the MIT gang as well as old Georgia Tech friends at JPL to hang out with inside and outside of work. I also want to continue to meet new people at work and outside of work, so that we're not always hanging out with engineers!
It's been tough to post now that I'm out here working because I don't want to write at work, and when I get home, I don't want to spend any time on the computer since that's what I do at work all day. I'll try to keep this up for those of you out there who still read it though. :-)
Now I need to run to Trader Joe's for edamame because I'm making dinner for Gil.
