Would you like to dance around the world with me?

When would you rather not know the truth?

I would almost say never. I think communication and the truth is so extremely important in any friendship or relationship. I know a blog isn't the best place to put down feelings such as what's coming, but it's nothing you haven't heard.

What if you can't understand the truth? My mind is doing mental gymnastics trying to figure this all out. I don't like the back and forth. I don't like the pain. I don't like that there could be more pain. I don't like that we're on two different wavelengths when it comes to dating. I don't like that you feel something is missing because I'm not her. But I also don't like the idea of not seeing you.

There are a lot of things I could say about getting over a first love. Believe me, I've been there. It sucks and maybe you're afraid of getting hurt again, but like you said:
Love, it doesn't like to give up.
When it hurts, it just keeps hurting.
But when it's good, it can be amazing.

Exactly, it can be amazing. And, although "love" might be a big word to throw around, it deserves the chance to be amazing.

I think of Tom Cruise in a "Few Good Men" when he says "You want the truth? You want the truth? You can't handle the truth!" I'm afraid tonight I almost couldn't handle the truth. How does one learn to control emotions? Or should we even bother trying to hide those feelings for other people? Jen commented that we don't truly live until we experience not only the joy, but also the pain, of relationships. We learn and grow from pain, and it's not something we should be afraid of. I think I say that so that maybe I can convince myself it's true...

My eyes are tired, and I think 5 hours of sleep two nights in a row doesn't cut it for me. Perhaps there will be more tomorrow.

posted by Biff @ 1:06 AM